Written for ‘SheCanMagazine‘ where Jodie Moone is a Wellness Contributor.
Date Written: May 2021
In 2014, the Office For National Statistics reported that 19.7% of people in the UK aged 16 and over showed symptoms of anxiety or depression. Having likely increased since then, somehow, the subject doesn’t become any easier to talk about.
When I was diagnosed with depression in early 2017, and again in 2019, I found the title ‘depression’ challenging to accept. I didn’t want to admit I was depressed because I didn’t want to accept I needed help or that I was struggling. I also think I was afraid of the term because of what I saw in mainstream media. Depression, to me, seemed like someone who couldn’t get out of bed or shower, someone who found day-to-day life too challenging to face. This didn’t match what I was experiencing or living, as I went to work and only crumbled when alone, hiding away from those who cared about me.
Each time the word ‘depression’ came up, I withdrew. I didn’t even recognize I was doing it, but when asked why the word made me so uncomfortable, I came up with a sea of excuses, when the real reason was: the word sounded bigger than me.