Written for ‘The Mighty‘ in January 28, 2020
I’ve found when you read anything to do with anxiety or depression, you always read about having a “good support system” around you. Which makes a lot of sense; having lights in your life can help banish away the dark. Having someone to talk to about every day things (and the harder times) makes a lot of sense on the road to recovery. It also offers a sense of normality, when everything else feels like it’s turning into dust.
Having a support system is fantastic, and helps to anchor you when you feel like you’re drowning or floating away from who you are. And, in the beginning — and I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks this — it seems like you’ll never find yourself without them. When the first real bad thing happens, they’re there, hands in yours or with their arms around you. But as the week ticks on, the fight to keep hold of yourself remaining, it seems like the support system dwindles.
It’s not them.